S.I.M.P.L.I.C.I.T.Y at it's B.E.S.T

April Fools say what?

2008-04-01T21:51:19Z

Wesley (corpusxeternus on melodramatic) and I are now officially together!! After a long, and rather brutal battle with Missy (as well as Devon), things are finally over, which allows me some peace in mind. I never realized how psycho she can really be. It’s sorta scary actually, and sometimes I worry that she’s going to buy her passport, fly down to Ohio and do something horrible to him.

But then
that’s my silly, worrying thoughts for you

Wesley: Im honored to have you in my life
Wesley: I cant word how amazing it is that I have you

I just want you close
Where you can stay forever
You can be sure
That it will only get better

Honestly, he makes me so happy! I’ve never felt this way before.. We can openly talk about everything! No matter WHAT it is... and the whole time he tells me how much he loves me, and how much he wants to spend the rest of his life with me.

Too soon?
Gosh, don’t I know it
and you know what? I don’t CARE! Someone once told me that if love isn’t soon, than it wasn’t meant to be, and gosh! Do I feel love!

You and me together
Through the days and nights
I don't worry 'cause
Everything's going to be alright
People keep talking they can say what they like
But all i know is everything's going to be alright

I’m seriously blooming with it! I can’t sit still; I want to "spread my wings and fly"! I’m singing more, and I’m full of energy. I can’t look at another guy without comparing them to Wesley. Every day and every night, on the hour and by the minute - I think of him!

Is this really love? Or is this a dream come true, and some day I’m going to wake up?

No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I'm feeling
No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you, you, you
Can get in the way of what I feel for you

Dear me! Silly silly, worrying thoughts.. tsk tsk for escape my brain. Get back there! I don’t want you messing up what I thought would never come true.

Andy, Jay-Pee, TD&H.. they have NOTHING on Wesley! Gosh! I was such a fool when I thought THAT was love. But now I know... Now I know what my mother and father always tried to tell me.

none of them can love me
like you do
your feelings for me
is not you
better love me
they cant come
between me and you

yes you always around
you're the one
to wear my crown
I know you love me
I know you'll never let me down
woman you are so blessed
you never worry or stress

you're my empress
me and you together

"You’ll just know who that person is for you. No matter what! and you’ll fight to be with each other"

I guess I feel the same way my mother did when she met my father.
Ya know, she once told me the story of how she knew he was right for her.

When the rain is pouring down
And my heart is hurting
You will always be around
This I know for certain

You and me together
Through the days and nights
I don't worry 'cause
Everything's going to be alright
People keep talking they can say what they like
But all i know is everything's going to be alright

She was in English class, and my father was in the Air Force away on duty in Texas. The teacher asked her what she was going to do when she graduated.. and bluntly she said "I’m marrying the man I’m with right now and have beautiful children"...

Funny thing is
she never told my father that
she just
well..

KNEW!

No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I'm feeling
No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you, you, you
Can get in the way of what I feel

I know some people search the world
To find something like what we have
I know people will try try to divide something so real
So till the end of time I'm telling you there is no one

Wesley: It felt so good to tell her you were my girlfriend
Wesley:like, this weight was lifted off of me

You Were Naughty This Year

You Were 70% Naughty, 30% Nice

You may not have been good this year...

But you sure had a really good time.

And nothing from Santa could top that!

Were You a Naughty Girl or Nice Girl this Year?

missing someone can tear your heart out

2008-02-28T03:58:07Z

I dig my toes into the sand
The ocean looks like a thousand diamonds
Strewn across a blue blanket
I lean against the wind
Pretend that I am weightless
And in this moment I am happy...happy

i can't deny the fact anymore that i miss him
every bone in my body wants him back
to hold him
to love him
to cry on his shoulders when something is wrong
and
to laugh at his stupid jokes when he's know i'm upset

every piece of my body is screaming out to him!!
WHY?!
why can't he just be with me?

I lay my head onto the sand
The sky resembles a backlit canopy
With holes punched in it
I'm counting UFOs
I signal them with my lighter
And in this moment I am happy...happy

instead, I'm stuck with this child-boy-of-a-man to call my boyfriend
suuuurree
he's nice enough
he's sweet enough
but he isn't who i want!

sometimes i feel like crawling into a little ball and just crying because he isn't here. but instead i suck it up and move on. i mean, come on!! the guy lives maaaannny miles away from me, so what chances do i have of ever truely having him for myself?

The world's a roller coaster
And I am not strapped in
Maybe I should hold with care
But my hands are busy in the air saying:

it's just
for once i would like to be happy with the guy i am with
not constantly longing for someone i know i can't have...

and to think..
my dad gave his blessing to have him pay for me to go live with him..
who knows, maybe when he is finished with college he will send for me. gosh i would love it if he did that for me

I wish you were here
I wish you were here
I wish you were here
Wish you were here

Your True Love Is a Cancer

Why you'll love a Cancer:

Cancer's loyal and sincere heart makes your own sensitive heart melt.

Caring and devoted, a Cancer will take the lead in pursuing you - and not give up!

Why a Cancer will love you:

You're laid back enough to deal with Cancer's little mood swings and freak-outs.

A fellow homebody, you know how make Cancer comfortable and at home with you.

What Sign Is Your True Love?

sometimes he makes me go "ahhhh.."

2008-02-02T19:15:35Z

Well I don't know what I'm looking for
But I know that I just wanna look some more
And I won't be satisfied
'Till there's nothing left that I haven't tried
For some people it's an easy choice
But for me there's a devil and an angel's voice
Well I don't know what I am looking for
But I know that I just wanna look some more

can i just dance right now??
lots and LOTS of happy dancing

*squee*

i'm far too hyper for my own good
but you make me that way
^.^

Well I don't know what I'm living for
But I know that I just wanna live some more
And you hear it from strangers
And you hear it from friends
That love never dies, love never ends
Now I don't wanna argue, no I don't wanna fight
'Cause you're always wrong and I'm always right
Well I don't know what I am living for
But I know that I just wanna live some more

hehe

sing sing,
sing those words
sing till your heart cries out
for the chorus of the people
and the tears of their sorrow

sing until nothing matters
sing until you've sung those cares away

sing sing
SING!

I used to be involved, and I felt like a king
Now I've lost it all and I don't feel a thing
I may never grow old, I may never give in
And I'll blame this world that I live in
I visit hell on a daily basis
I see the sadness in all your faces
I've got friends who have married
And their lives seem complete
Here I am still stumbling down a darkened street

xD

And I act like a child and I'm insecure
And I'm filled with doubt and I'm immature
Sometimes it creeps up on me and before I know it
I'm lost at sea
But no matter how far I row
I always find my way back home
But I don't know what I've been waiting for
But I know that I don't wanna wait anymore

You Are Smokin' Hot

You're a terrible flirt, a sharp dresser, and a party animal.
Of course, you're totally sizzling too. And for you, being hot just comes naturally.

Are You Hot?

you don't have a job, so stop lying

2008-01-31T21:44:01Z

Now I will tell you what I've done for you -
50 thousand tears I've cried.
Screaming, deceiving and bleeding for you -
And you still won't hear me.
(going under)

Don't want your hand this time - I'll save myself.
Maybe I'll wake up for once (wake up for once)
Not tormented daily defeated by you
Just when I thought I'd reached the bottom

why the hell can't she just admit that she's lying?
lying to me
lying to you
lying to herself...

I'm dying again
it's starting to bother me

she doesn't have a job.. no matter what she says, and i know this for a fact.
i've called rite aid..
i've asked about her
and they don't even KNOW who she is..

Blurring and stirring - the truth and the lies.
(So I don't know what's real) So I don't know what's real and what's not (and what's not)
Always confusing the thoughts in my head
So I can't trust myself anymore

her rent is only $30 a month, and yet she can't even afford that.
how can you NOT afford $30?
hell, if i could only pay that much, i'd move out of my parents' house..
i can't stand it here
(yet i stay to make my mother happy).

she's gonna get kicked out. her land lord has already told her that. in fact, they want to see a pay stub to prove that she is working
but she can't produce one
BECAUSE SHE ISN'T!!!!

I'm dying again

Blurring and stirring - the truth and the lies.
(So I don't know what's real) So I don't know what's real and what's not (and what's not)
Always confusing the thoughts in my head
So I can't trust myself anymore

I'm dying again

i want to kick her in the arse.
just a big ol' kick
maybe that will motivate her
FAT
LAZY
ASSSSSSSSSS

(doubt it thought)

I'm...

So go on and scream
Scream at me I'm so far away (so far away)
I won't be broken again (again)
I've got to breathe - I can't keep going under

I'm dying again

I'm going under (going under)
Drowning in you (drowning in you)
I'm falling forever (falling forever)
I've got to break through

I'm going under (going under)
I'm going under (drowning in you)
I'm going under

You are Dark Chocolate

You live your life with intensity, always going full force.
You push yourself (and others) to the limit... you want more than you can handle.
An extreme person, you challenge and inspire the world!

What Kind of Chocolate Are You?

out of the ordinary

2008-01-30T12:28:57Z

Lights go out and I can’t be saved
Tides that I tried to swim against
Brought me down upon my knees
Oh I beg, I beg and plead

Singin’, come out if things aren’t said
Shoot an apple off my head
And a, trouble that can’t be named
Tigers waitin’ to be tamed

first entries always suck, but in the end i pull out of it.
you may know me from melodramatic
you may know me from livejournal
and hell!
we may have gone to school together

but in the end, i'm just not going to care.

here is where my thoughts form
here is where i ramble
here is where you can REALLY appreciate my writing style and ME for the matter, for who and what i truely am...

Confusion never stops
Closing walls and ticking clocks
Gonna, come back and take you home
I could not stop that you now know

Singin’, come out upon my seas
Curse missed opportunities
Am I, a part of the cure
Or am I part of the disease

i like to listen to music
i like to take dumb surveys
i like to post polls and quizzes
and i like to add random anime photos that probably don't belong!

Oh nothing else compares
Oh nothing else compares
And nothing else compares

i hate writing poetry
i hate listening to people vent (even though i do it myself)
i hate singing in the shower
and i hate wanting to be noticed.

Home, home, where I wanted to go
Home, home, where I wanted to go
Home, home, where I wanted to go
Home, home, where I wanted to go

Aweeee... but that is me, no?

You Act Like You Are 29 Years Old

You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel like an adult, and you're optimistic about life.
You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.

You're still figuring out your place in the world and how you want your life to shape up.
The world is full of possibilities, and you can't wait to explore many of them.

What Age Do You Act?

S.I.M.P.L.I.C.I.T.Y at it's B.E.S.T

*April Fools say what?*

*missing someone can tear your heart out*

*sometimes he makes me go "ahhhh.."*

*you don't have a job, so stop lying*

*out of the ordinary*

April Fools say what?

missing someone can tear your heart out

sometimes he makes me go "ahhhh.."

you don't have a job, so stop lying

out of the ordinary